[Elena's grateful for the silence and doesn't say anything as they leave the library and make their way to Abigail's cabin. She's even more grateful for the hand to hold. It's hard for her to gauge how cold her own hand is. All she really knows is that Abigail's is warm and a comfort. Even after they get to her cabin and sit down, she doesn't let go. It feels...safer that way.]

[It feels like a lifetime before she finally figures out how to start explaining all of this to Abigail, but only seconds have truly passed by once they've settled down.]

The first person that I killed was named Connor. I killed him before I turned my humanity off because he tried to go after my brother.

[She doesn't regret killing Connor to protect her brother, but she still feels guilt and shame over it all the same. It's not something she's really worked through to figure out how she feels about it, but she thinks most days that's probably for the best. The next part is a little easier to talk about.]

I didn't know it at the time because Stefan was keeping it from me, but Connor was one of the Five. Each of the hunters in the Five have a tattoo that only other or potential members could see called the Hunter's Mark. It acts as a map to the cure, but hunters don't get the whole mark. A hunter only starts to get the mark after one has died and after he's killed a vampire.

[She heaves a heavy sigh. If Stefan hadn't kept it from her, things might have been different. Jeremy might have been safe from all of this and she could have kept him out of it. But maybe not.]

Jeremy could see the Mark.