Funny, I was about to say the opposite of you.

[Elena doesn't think of herself as any more or less restrained than anybody else with a moral compass. In fact, she's felt freer here on the Barge than she has in years back home.]

But then again, there really isn't much hope for you, is there? You'd rather just keep ramming into a wall than perhaps try to change direction and look for something better for yourself.