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[forgetyourusedtobe]

text - arkin.

Hey, I wanted to ask you something.

text - abigail.

Are you busy?

video.

I've been thinking a lot since we were able to talk to people from home.

I've never really been away from home before until now. Not for a really long time anyway. Not like this. I miss the people there, but...

[There's a small pause.]

I'm not sure if I want to go home. I don't mean staying on the Barge. I know that once I'm done here, I'm done. But just...staying in Mystic Falls? I don't know if I can go back to my life like that. I don't know if I can go back to the same people like that.

Does anyone else feel like that?

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[private]

[halftheman]

[ Two-Face snorts. ]

You got over that.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Not exactly.

At first, I was pulled away from it kick and screaming. But then I found my own reasons not to see the world that way.

[private]

[halftheman]

And what did you find?

[ Two-Face wants to know; if Harvey's more stable, they can endure longer. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Friendship. Love.

[private]

[halftheman]

[ Something Harvey isn't sure he believes in and another that has burned him before. But he can't be unhappy for her. ]

Good for you, then.

[ It's not harsh; is as happy for her as he allows himself to be, which is pretty good. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

It's worth the risk of pain, you know.

[private]

[halftheman]

I'm well aware of the risks.

You know we currently have a lady in our lives. [ Which is actually sort of a big deal. ] So it... isn't like... [ Like what? Why were they defending themselves? Were they... happy? ]

[ Not entirely, not completely, but... ]

[ There were worse places he could be. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Sounds like it's a good start.

[private]

[halftheman]

Better than it used to be.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Hey, once you hit rock bottom, you can only really go up, right?

[private]

[halftheman]

That's what they say. Just don't know that we have.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

You're here, aren't you?

[private]

[halftheman]

For the value of whatever that means, yes.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Then I think it's pretty safe to say that you can only go up from here.

[private]

[halftheman]

No, there's always further you can fall.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

How much further can you really go? You're dead and stuck on a spaceship with no real freedom with floods you can't control or stop.

What's left to lose?

[private]

[halftheman]

The shreds of our dignity. Among other things. Try hard enough-- you'll find there's always an inch of you you haven't lost yet; it's the last inch you have, where you store all the things that made you a person.

They sure as hell try and take it from you, if they know you have it.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

I know. But you don't have to let it happen.

[private]

[halftheman]

Resisting gravity is a hell of a thing, Elena.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

The same's been said about a lot of things, but people are still able to do it.

[private]

[halftheman]

Some people. World has plenty of people who don't.

But don''t let me drag you down, Elena. You got plans.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

And you don't?

[private]

[halftheman]

None that involve graduation. And we're not smart enough to figure out a scow like this works, to take over and escape. Not our area of expertise.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

I wouldn't recommend trying something like that anyway. There's no telling what a place like this could do to you if you were in control of it anyway.

[private]

[halftheman]

We'd split it down the middle. It'd be good for exactly nobody.