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forgetyourusedtobe) wrote2014-02-15 02:38 pm
forgetyourusedtobe) wrote2014-02-15 02:38 pm
Entry tags:
- abibabble stabigail,
- big bro dean,
- bond is another drunk mentor,
- emotions aren't the devil,
- it was totally worth it though btw,
- it's been a long journey,
- leaving the salvatores behind,
- she's her own hero now,
- she's not a survivor,
- she's not a victim,
- sorry arkin,
- time for what elena wants,
- time to figure out the mystery of life,
- two sides of the same coin
Є019 spam/text/voice/video; so far from where i started.
[Elena returns to her cabin after lunch and notices the door leading to her bathroom is closed. Elena freezes, sensing something is different and entirely unseure of what. Swallowing hard, she steps forward and puts a tentative hand on the handle. Opening it, she finds the shared full bathroom she had with her brother. Her heart clenches in her chest at the sight of the smooth wall where another door should be, but she doesn't look away. Instead, she just stands there a while in silence. She needs a few minutes to let it sink in.]
[She can go.]
spam - abigail.
[She knows she should go to Arkin first, but Arkin has to wait. There's someone she needs to see first before him. Elena leaves her room in a hurry and heads to Abigail's, knocking on the door. She realizes, of course, after she knocks that she's woefully unprepared to have this conversation. She doesn't know the right way or the best way to say she's leaving. She knows Abigail will understand. Abigail always does. But she's also not sure how Abigail will handle it in the end. Or if they'll ever see each other again. But it's a conversation that has to happen. So Elena draws a deep breath and steels herself for what is to come.]
spam - arkin.
[After she's had time with Abigail, Elena leaves for Arkin's cabin. Her knock is a little smaller than she intended, but she's already feeling a little emotionally drained and exhausted. But she's still happy. She's happier than she's felt in a long while.]
text - dean.
what do you say to one last drink?
text - bond.
hey jimmy, i got some good news.
voice - harvey.
I did it.
video.
[Elena feels like she should have some kind of speech prepared. Some kind of splendid and memorable goodbye with gratitude to everyone who stuck by her through the worst of her life. She started with no humanity, hating herself and everything her life had become. But gradually, over time, Elena learned to love herself again. She learned to not be afraid of caring. There's a storm of emotions inside of her, good and bad, but she can navigate through them now. And the emotion she feels the most is hope.]
[She'd forgotten what that felt like.]
I really don't know what to say. I guess because I never really thought I'd get to this point.
[She smiles.]
But I guess I graduated.
[She can go.]
spam - abigail.
[She knows she should go to Arkin first, but Arkin has to wait. There's someone she needs to see first before him. Elena leaves her room in a hurry and heads to Abigail's, knocking on the door. She realizes, of course, after she knocks that she's woefully unprepared to have this conversation. She doesn't know the right way or the best way to say she's leaving. She knows Abigail will understand. Abigail always does. But she's also not sure how Abigail will handle it in the end. Or if they'll ever see each other again. But it's a conversation that has to happen. So Elena draws a deep breath and steels herself for what is to come.]
spam - arkin.
[After she's had time with Abigail, Elena leaves for Arkin's cabin. Her knock is a little smaller than she intended, but she's already feeling a little emotionally drained and exhausted. But she's still happy. She's happier than she's felt in a long while.]
text - dean.
what do you say to one last drink?
text - bond.
hey jimmy, i got some good news.
voice - harvey.
I did it.
video.
[Elena feels like she should have some kind of speech prepared. Some kind of splendid and memorable goodbye with gratitude to everyone who stuck by her through the worst of her life. She started with no humanity, hating herself and everything her life had become. But gradually, over time, Elena learned to love herself again. She learned to not be afraid of caring. There's a storm of emotions inside of her, good and bad, but she can navigate through them now. And the emotion she feels the most is hope.]
[She'd forgotten what that felt like.]
I really don't know what to say. I guess because I never really thought I'd get to this point.
[She smiles.]
But I guess I graduated.
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Stay safe, and don't come back to this dump.
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