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forgetyourusedtobe) wrote2014-04-27 06:28 pm
forgetyourusedtobe) wrote2014-04-27 06:28 pm
Є020 spam/text/video
spam - abigail.
[Elena doesn't know if she's still here or not, but she still moves quickly through the halls to her door. Elena's only a little relieved to see it still there. Truth be told, she's a little nervous about seeing Abigail again. She doesn't know what to expect to find. Elena has hopes that Abigail's still the same at the very least. Maybe better. She hopes not worse. She's also not sure if Abigail is going to want to see her or not. It's an irrational thought, but it's not exactly an impossibility either.]
[In the end, Elena decides it's impossible to separate nerves from actual likelihoods and straightens. She glances down at herself briefly before taking a deep breath and knocking.]
spam - dean.
[Elena has two more stops after she's done with Abigail. The first of which, she's not nervous about. Dean's going to be annoyed. He's going to probably offer up a lecture or, at the very least, give her a very stern talking-to. And then he's going to get over it.]
[She's not worried about whether or not his door is there. She knows he'll be there and sure enough, he is. Elena knocks on the door lightly and folds her arms.]
spam - bond.
[Elena almost doesn't come to this door. She almost decides that instead, maybe she should just send a message. But she decides not to do that. That would probably be his way of doing things, but it's never been Elena's way. So, instead, she walks up to his door to find it still there. It's not quite as unsurprising as Dean's continued presence, but it's no less a welcomed sight.]
[The last time she was here, it was to say goodbye. And he invited her inside.]
[Things between them had changed a lot between the two of them since she first arrived. He's probably going to be pissed she came back. He might not get over it as fast as Dean. But it's okay. She'll withstand the disapproving looks and maybe threaten him with a hug if he really doesn't knock it off.]
[Elena raps on the door.]
[Elena takes some time to look at the network after she's made her visits before she starts sending out a few messages.]
private - chris.
i missed you enough to come back.
private - cassel.
i'm back.
private - mal.
i see he was here. is it stupid for me to ask if you're okay?
video.
[There are others, so many others, that she could send a private message to. But Elena decides to leave it there. No doubt some of the ones she might get in touch with or track down have already heard through the grapevine that she's back.]
[Elena sits down at her desk and flips the video feed on.]
Hey guys. I'm sorry if I didn't let you know personally that I'm back. There's a lot of you and I tried to get to as many as possible. [She purses her lips a moment.] I see a lot of you have left, too.
[She's mostly referring to Arkin. She hopes that wherever he is and whatever he's doing that he's okay. But that is neither here nor there.]
But there's also a lot of you I haven't met yet, too. My name is Elena. For those of you who don't know, I used to be an inmate. I was here... [She pauses to think.] ...about nine months before I graduated and left.
I'm sure someone else has long-since beaten me to it, but if you need anything or have any questions, let me know. This place can be pretty rough and trust me when I say it helps to have friends.
[Elena doesn't know if she's still here or not, but she still moves quickly through the halls to her door. Elena's only a little relieved to see it still there. Truth be told, she's a little nervous about seeing Abigail again. She doesn't know what to expect to find. Elena has hopes that Abigail's still the same at the very least. Maybe better. She hopes not worse. She's also not sure if Abigail is going to want to see her or not. It's an irrational thought, but it's not exactly an impossibility either.]
[In the end, Elena decides it's impossible to separate nerves from actual likelihoods and straightens. She glances down at herself briefly before taking a deep breath and knocking.]
spam - dean.
[Elena has two more stops after she's done with Abigail. The first of which, she's not nervous about. Dean's going to be annoyed. He's going to probably offer up a lecture or, at the very least, give her a very stern talking-to. And then he's going to get over it.]
[She's not worried about whether or not his door is there. She knows he'll be there and sure enough, he is. Elena knocks on the door lightly and folds her arms.]
spam - bond.
[Elena almost doesn't come to this door. She almost decides that instead, maybe she should just send a message. But she decides not to do that. That would probably be his way of doing things, but it's never been Elena's way. So, instead, she walks up to his door to find it still there. It's not quite as unsurprising as Dean's continued presence, but it's no less a welcomed sight.]
[The last time she was here, it was to say goodbye. And he invited her inside.]
[Things between them had changed a lot between the two of them since she first arrived. He's probably going to be pissed she came back. He might not get over it as fast as Dean. But it's okay. She'll withstand the disapproving looks and maybe threaten him with a hug if he really doesn't knock it off.]
[Elena raps on the door.]
[Elena takes some time to look at the network after she's made her visits before she starts sending out a few messages.]
private - chris.
i missed you enough to come back.
private - cassel.
i'm back.
private - mal.
i see he was here. is it stupid for me to ask if you're okay?
video.
[There are others, so many others, that she could send a private message to. But Elena decides to leave it there. No doubt some of the ones she might get in touch with or track down have already heard through the grapevine that she's back.]
[Elena sits down at her desk and flips the video feed on.]
Hey guys. I'm sorry if I didn't let you know personally that I'm back. There's a lot of you and I tried to get to as many as possible. [She purses her lips a moment.] I see a lot of you have left, too.
[She's mostly referring to Arkin. She hopes that wherever he is and whatever he's doing that he's okay. But that is neither here nor there.]
But there's also a lot of you I haven't met yet, too. My name is Elena. For those of you who don't know, I used to be an inmate. I was here... [She pauses to think.] ...about nine months before I graduated and left.
I'm sure someone else has long-since beaten me to it, but if you need anything or have any questions, let me know. This place can be pretty rough and trust me when I say it helps to have friends.
spam
Don't tell me it's because of me. I can't stand that. Tell me it's because of your brother, or someone else you want to bring back, but don't blame this on me, Elena. It's not fair and it's not right.
[As much as she's glad Elena's here, as much as she's missed her, Abigail would not want to be the cause of Elena losing her freedom again. Sure, she can leave now if she wants, but she probably won't. She's stubborn and willful, and she's seen herself through so much, she'll think she can get through this. And she can. Abigail just isn't sure she won't come through scarred.]
spam
[Elena sighs, rubbing at her forehead. She's screwing this up. Not that there was any particular way of handling this that would be easy, but she could be doing better with this than she is.]
[She looks over Abigail's shoulder into her room for a moment and it's only then that she realizes she's stilling hanging out in the hallway. Elena slowly drops Abigail's hand, folding her arms. Maybe she should have waited to come here. But it would've probably hurt Abigail more if she heard from someone else that Elena had come back than if she came here before she saw anyone else. It's an uphill battle right now and one that Elena will inevitably lose if she keeps pushing, so she opts for a retreat.]
You obviously need space, [she says, bringing her gaze back to Abigail.] I have other people I need to see anyway to let them I know I came back. So um. Just take your time, okay?
spam
[But it'll be worse if Elena's here. Abigail will say things she doesn't mean, or only partially means, and it'll just hurt that much more to have to look at her.]
[She shakes her head and backs into her room, crossing her arms and looking away.]
Sure. Go talk to whoever you need to. Get settled back in.
Just . . . be careful. [That sounds stupid.] I don't know.
I don't know.
spam
I love you.
spam
[She doesn't even consider not saying it back. She could be that petty with anyone but Elena. But she doesn't think she loves anyone but Elena.]
[She says I love you, and then she closes the door in Elena's face. Maybe that makes her a bad person. But she already knew that, really, and it doesn't make the words any less true.]