you won't be sad forever

( simon )

voice.

( private )

[When she finally feels like she can keep it together long enough, she picks up her communicator.]

If you found my diary, I'd appreciate it if you'd give it back. [She draws a steadying breath, pushing her hair back out of her face. There's a small sniffle.] I'm uh... I'm in my room. Level 4, room 3.

Thanks.

[She cuts it there.]

spam.
( ooh spam ooh )

[Elena is sitting in the cafeteria with more food than she could ever possibly want to eat. Her diary is nearby, opened with a running table across two pages for her to catalog what she's tried eating and what she likes or doesn't like about the flavors. That will help her learn to filter, or so she thinks. It could also just be busy work.]

[After her experiment, Elena can be found in the library. She finds a quiet spot to curl up with the book Abigail loaned her: a collection of Flannery O'Connor's work. Sometimes she's not actually reading, just looking at the words on the pages and thumbing the corner, because a thought came to her. But mostly, she's reading. When she gets tired of that, she goes to her room to change and heads to the gym. People who have watched her before will notice she's not attacking the bag with quite the same fervor right away. It takes a while for it to build before she's accidentally breaking it. Again.]

[Finally, Elena moves to sit on the deck. Although she stops off at her room, she doesn't bother with changing out of her gym clothes and settles on a bench to write in her diary. She writes down that she managed to get through the day. It's important that she write that down at the end of every day. It's a small reminder when she writes in it again.]

( Dear Admiral )