Є018 text/video

[forgetyourusedtobe]

text - arkin.

Hey, I wanted to ask you something.

text - abigail.

Are you busy?

video.

I've been thinking a lot since we were able to talk to people from home.

I've never really been away from home before until now. Not for a really long time anyway. Not like this. I miss the people there, but...

[There's a small pause.]

I'm not sure if I want to go home. I don't mean staying on the Barge. I know that once I'm done here, I'm done. But just...staying in Mystic Falls? I don't know if I can go back to my life like that. I don't know if I can go back to the same people like that.

Does anyone else feel like that?

Comments

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Then you might not have found your reason to yet. But I don't know. I don't know what it will take for you to graduate and I can't pretend to possibly know. But I think you will find your reason someday.

You're not a bad person. You're not necessarily misguided either. Sometimes life just happens to people. And I think you're one of those people.

You'll figure it out, Harvey.

[private]

[halftheman]

And if I don't want to, because Gotham is better with it's ex-DA in the ground? If my death takes out even one major player-- myself-- then isn't it better I stay dead?

[ He's thought about this a lot; thought long and hard, and always come to the same point. It's better for Gotham, for the people he used to love, if he dies and stays part of the city's bones. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

I don't know about Gotham, but maybe you're better off not being in it. Not being dead, just not there.

[private]

[halftheman]

I don't think it's a good idea. This isn't the first time we've been reformed. It doesn't stick.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Then maybe reformation isn't what you need. Maybe it's something else we just don't have a word for.

[private]

[halftheman]

Maybe. I'm not holding my breath, though. Already drowned once.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

It sounds like to me you could use with more space to breathe in anyways.

[private]

[halftheman]

Maybe. Or maybe we need to finally just -- stop.

[ Two-Face snarls to the fore, frustrated. He grumbles and mutters as he comes back, but then speaks more clearly. ]

Don't listen to sadsack; he's good with cashing in his chips; I'm not. There's plenty to live for.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

You can't blame him for not seeing that though.

[She's quiet for a moment.]

I didn't.

[private]

[halftheman]

[ Two-Face snorts. ]

You got over that.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Not exactly.

At first, I was pulled away from it kick and screaming. But then I found my own reasons not to see the world that way.

[private]

[halftheman]

And what did you find?

[ Two-Face wants to know; if Harvey's more stable, they can endure longer. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Friendship. Love.

[private]

[halftheman]

[ Something Harvey isn't sure he believes in and another that has burned him before. But he can't be unhappy for her. ]

Good for you, then.

[ It's not harsh; is as happy for her as he allows himself to be, which is pretty good. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

It's worth the risk of pain, you know.

[private]

[halftheman]

I'm well aware of the risks.

You know we currently have a lady in our lives. [ Which is actually sort of a big deal. ] So it... isn't like... [ Like what? Why were they defending themselves? Were they... happy? ]

[ Not entirely, not completely, but... ]

[ There were worse places he could be. ]

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Sounds like it's a good start.

[private]

[halftheman]

Better than it used to be.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Hey, once you hit rock bottom, you can only really go up, right?

[private]

[halftheman]

That's what they say. Just don't know that we have.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

You're here, aren't you?

[private]

[halftheman]

For the value of whatever that means, yes.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

Then I think it's pretty safe to say that you can only go up from here.

[private]

[halftheman]

No, there's always further you can fall.

[private]

[forgetyourusedtobe]

How much further can you really go? You're dead and stuck on a spaceship with no real freedom with floods you can't control or stop.

What's left to lose?